Blessed and Highly Favored

If I could take a minute to expose myself to you I would tell you that the day my father died was the day that nearly destroyed me. I would tell you how I lost my faith and told God to never interfere with my life again, as if my life didn't belong to him! I would tell you how I used to smoke and drink until.....exactly, I dont even remember half of those days. I would tell you how I used alcohol and marijuana to suppress my problems. I would tell you of some of the things I went through that made me pray to God that he would just let me die (u wouldn't beleive some of the things) I would tell you about all of my insecurities, tragedies, imperfections and deepest fears...But I'd rather tell you about how Blessed I am.

I have learned that sometimes God will bring you to your lowest point just to get your attention. Just when you think it is never going to end, God comes around and works a miracle that you never even seen coming. Looking back, I know that a lot of the things that I went through were my own fault! God kept showing me what direction he wanted me to go in but I always went the other way. If I told you what it took for God to get my attention you would probably think I was lying but I will tell you that there are 3 other people on this earth who were there and saw what I saw, and experienced what I experienced. There are only 3 other people who can testify to that day. 3.....the number of confirmation, how ironic is that? My two college roommates and a friend of ours. But I will leave that between the 4 of us and God, because I truly beleive that what God showed us on the evening of February 13th, 2005 was for us. But that day, I knew that My God was real. All the years that I had been running from him, he didnt forget about me. I put myself in so many situations where, really I dont even know how I am still here living. God saved me. Everytime I put myself in danger, my Maker allowed me to live to see another day. When I thought I had nothing to live for, God gave me my son, Micah. Y'all just dont know! The day my son was born was the day God blessed my life beyond measure. I had to live. I had to survive. I had to straighten up and be a Mother to my son. He depends on me. God entrusted me with his life. Sometimes I hold my son and I just thank God for him. I am so grateful for His gift. I cherish every minute that I am with him and everytime my son smiles at me I could just cry. (My son has a beautiful smile) I cherish my son, but I will never take him for granted. I will always remember that just as God gave him to me, he can take him away. So I just remember to ALWAYS thank God and praise God for him. I am so grateful and thankful for God's love and mercy. That is how I know that God has a plan for me. I am a far cry from the little girl I used to be, I have changed in so many ways. Never again will I lose my faith and deny God. Im striving to be a better woman, a better Christian, a better person overall. I am determined to get it right. The fact that I am here, living, and breathing lets me know that I Am Blessed and Highly Favored by the Lord.
Micah Khalil = "He who is like God" is an "Honorable Comrade"
Be Blessed Yall!